Monday, January 20, 2014

Words, just words

It's funny and ridiculous how mere words can hurt us sometimes. They shouldn't but they do.

I noticed a friend's facebook post and it stuck into me like a knife stab. It was like the friend was only recognizing certain people, singling them out. So yeah I suddenly felt excluded and felt like dirt.

Why do I do that to myself?

All of a sudden I felt unappreciated again. The friend and I hadn't talked much lately. It seems like there is nothing to talk about, no joy and not much support anymore from that person. And the friend always becomes busy with others. Other people always seem nicer than old friends, maybe?

They do say that you cannot always rely on others for comfort. Boy, they are so right.

So why do I care? Why does my heart feel like it's bleeding again?

I have no idea.

Just when I feel like I am stronger, something like this happens and it sends me reeling.

So I'll just keep plodding forward and try to push this aside. It's just my perception. I just need to focus on being me.

And so it goes...